Confessional #4: What are you thinking about...?

[Brenda Lowe]

Thanks to Wendy's skills, she discovered the password to the NuSavaii tribecamp so all of us are still together. This meant the rest of the remaining 3 tribes became the NuEspada. This challenge is one of the toughest in that it will be extremely close. There are so many variables that knowing who will win will be decided in the last hour of the challenge. So with that in mind, there is the question about how to vote in the Tribal Council. There has been talk within the 5 Player Alliance about splitting the votes between Rupert and Clarence on the chance that Rupert has a idol. It would be a smart move because if the last player to check during the first elimination challenge also gets an idol, then it would be Rupert who would have it. Wendy has told me about the idol she got for making first post in the NuSavaii, so that's two idols in our control.


there was an aim conversation I had with one of the members of my 5 Player Alliance. Based on Jud's response, I'm beginning to see doubt that he can be loyal.

EHmatus88 (2:03:49 AM): I know I'll be crossing my fingers with this challenge
judsonisawinner (2:03:53 AM): yea
judsonisawinner (2:04:08 AM): i think
judsonisawinner (2:04:09 AM): we should do good
judsonisawinner (2:04:14 AM): since its going to be a pain in the ass
judsonisawinner (2:04:19 AM): for the other tirbe to know how many they got
judsonisawinner (2:05:09 AM): if you decide to go to bed
judsonisawinner (2:05:10 AM): i was thinking
judsonisawinner (2:05:14 AM): you could use search
judsonisawinner (2:05:18 AM): to find all the ones against you
judsonisawinner (2:05:49 AM): i guess Typos would mess that up
EHmatus88 (2:06:51 AM): if I do go to bed, I'd keep the site up and just close my laptop. that way when I open it back up, I'll just refresh the page I'm on and check each page to see my bags
judsonisawinner (2:10:06 AM): your too smart
judsonisawinner (2:10:13 AM): its a tad annoying
EHmatus88 (2:10:19 AM): hehe ^.^
EHmatus88 (2:10:30 AM): I hope it's not a bad thing lol
judsonisawinner (2:13:08 AM): nah
judsonisawinner (2:13:14 AM): i can kind of see
judsonisawinner (2:13:18 AM): why the other tribes hate you
EHmatus88 (2:13:27 AM): lmao
EHmatus88 (2:15:14 AM): I really don't see myself as being really smart. I know I've had several times where I run into problems understanding a challenge
EHmatus88 (2:17:01 AM): Me personally, I'll do whatever it takes to help my tribe/alliance to make it far. Doing well in the challenges is definitely one way
judsonisawinner (2:17:11 AM): yea
judsonisawinner (2:17:24 AM): the fab five
EHmatus88 (2:17:38 AM): totally
judsonisawinner (2:18:58 AM): lol
judsonisawinner (2:19:00 AM): cool girl shades
EHmatus88 (2:20:06 AM): It's amazing how our tribe has done well throughout this season
judsonisawinner (2:21:04 AM): yea seriosuyl
EHmatus88 (2:22:16 AM): hmm I'm thinking when I make a bag post, to include the page # and the reply number
EHmatus88 (2:22:25 AM): So I won't lose count
judsonisawinner (2:35:21 AM): hm yea
judsonisawinner (2:35:26 AM): i considered that too


The fact he thinks I'm "too smart" means he realize that I'm a threat. it's only a matter of time before he tries to blindside me. I talked about it with Wendy and we thought about creating a second separate alliance. this time with players more likely to be loyal. Jimmy and Sehmar are the two people we'd like to make the deal with and based off the conversation I had with Sehmar, I can see her being on board.


EHmatus88 (8:15:48 AM): Hey Sehmar ^.^
CadeGabriel (8:16:21 AM): Hii
EHmatus88 (8:17:15 AM): I'm glad to see you, Wendy, and Jimmy online
EHmatus88 (8:17:48 AM): for awhile it was Rupert against Kelly, Cochran, and Jill
CadeGabriel (8:18:05 AM): Yea :/
CadeGabriel (8:18:18 AM): At work now so I'm nt gonna be able to post as much
CadeGabriel (8:18:45 AM): But I'm gonna do as much as I can when I'm able to
CadeGabriel (8:19:03 AM): And then from 430-end of challenge I can post again
EHmatus88 (8:19:12 AM): understandable. I'm glad that it looks like the challenge is turning to our favor
CadeGabriel (8:19:46 AM): I'm just frustrated with Clarence
CadeGabriel (8:20:20 AM): He couldn't be on for the challenge bc of class
CadeGabriel (8:20:43 AM): But can't post Longer last nitw or this morning?
EHmatus88 (8:20:57 AM): yeah, I know he couldn't be here on time, but it didn't look like he made much of an effort
CadeGabriel (8:21:20 AM): If we do lose which I hope we don't
EHmatus88 (8:21:20 AM): at least with Wendy it was because of issues with her internet, something out of her control
CadeGabriel (8:21:30 AM): I will be voting for Clarence
EHmatus88 (8:21:34 AM): lol I know what you're thinking
CadeGabriel (8:21:39 AM): Wendy's great
CadeGabriel (8:21:56 AM): I've gotten to really get to know her the past few days
EHmatus88 (8:22:12 AM): definitely, it's thanks to Wendy that we could find the password so quickly so we all could stick together
CadeGabriel (8:23:25 AM): Xa
CadeGabriel (8:23:37 AM): I don't feel like ppl give her enough credit
EHmatus88 (8:26:37 AM): exactly, she is totally a team player. I'm glad someone else see it too
CadeGabriel (8:27:58 AM): She's done a lot for us
CadeGabriel (8:28:15 AM): An there are other ppl who have just been riding coattails
EHmatus88 (8:30:28 AM): agreed, there's a lot of effort people put into the challenge that are more than others
EHmatus88 (8:32:27 AM): I'd love it if the three of us could work together

So many sticky situations, but I believe Wendy and I can overcome them.