Confessional #6: Betrayal

[Brenda Lowe]

SON OF A MOTHERFUCKING BITCH!!!!! THOSE FUCKING ASSHOLES TRIED TO VOTE ME OFF! ME! AFTER ALL I'VE DONE IN THE CHALLENGE! JUD IS A DICKLESS COWARD! HE SHOULD HAVE COME TO ME IF HE HAD CONCERNS! INSTEAD HE HAD TO TRY AND BLINDSIDE ME! AND SEMHAR, I SERIOUSLY THOUGHT SHE WAS SOMEONE I COULD TRUST. I HAD THE ALLIANCE WITH HER BECAUSE I DIDN'T TRUST JUD!


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ugh, so numb now. I feel like I could cry, but I feel nothing. I knew if we had a tribal council, it would either destroy us or make us more unified. We are now split four against four and it's not looking good for myself and Wendy. I'm so glad Wendy talked me into playing my idol. I had this feeling I would be voted off. I alway have terrible luck in this series. To think the first chance our tribe goes to TC, I am the one that is almost voted off. SurVs really is out to get me. I'm scared that by the end of this round, either me or Wendy will be voted off. Luckily Jimmy and Tyrone are on our side. We need all the help we can get. Most likely we'll have to target someone they wouldn't expect to see it coming. Rupert has the idol I used. Jud has certainly put a huge target on his back so as to draw attention to himself. I'm thinking he hopes to get Ruperts idol and destory all our votes. this leave either Semhar and Alina. I would not expect it to happen like this. By the end of this next TC, someone will be the last Pre-jury member left



It's looking like the plan will be to vote off Alina which I personally like. I know at first I wanted Jud out, but that was out of the immediate reaction of the vote. Now that my head to clear and focus, what we have to do is vote for someone they wouldn't expect. Rupert has the idol I used and Jud has put himself in the crossfires with myself and Wendy. So the likely solution is that either Rupert will play the idol on himself or on Jud. We'd have to make sure to go after someone they wouldn't expect. This brings in either Alina and Semhar. Semhar was the obvious first pick, but Tyrone suggested Alina since she's closer to Jud. I've been working to mend the bridges with Semhar. As much as I hate being voted by her, I can understand her reasoning. I was doing some sneaky underhanded things. I should have been up front about the alliance Wendy and I were a part of at the beginning of the game. We both talked it over and it appears we're at a better ground. Even after all that was done, I still feel Semhar can be a trusting ally. We've agreed that right now, it's too early to beginning trusting each other completely. After sometime, we'd be able to start things right. So we're halfway through the forgive and forget stage. We've forgiven each other for the stuff that was done, but it will take some time to forget what was done and move pass that point.